I should have written this post hours ago. I didn't. I am a procrastinator.
This morning I was thinking of a few things I had to do. For each one I had a reason why doing them tomorrow would be much better. So, I sat there trying to figure out what to do with myself, as I had nothing to do right then.
At that moment I caught myself, and became cognizant of the folly of my procrastination. I got up and got one of the tasks done.
What struck me as interesting is that I have been engaging regularly in hisbodedus, personal prayer as taught by the Breslever Chasidim, especially Rabbi Shalom Aroush, of whom I have written earlier. One of the things I have repeatedly asked God to help me with, is this particular character trait. Today was the first time I really felt internally like I was receiving God's assistance to overcome this particular trait.
I am thankful for this one, small, victory, though I realize I still have a long way to go to rid myself of this scourge.
I should really pray right now, everything is quiet in the house, so that I don't lose my rhythm. Or maybe I will just pray later...
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